Unfortunately there won't be any deep and thought provoking or even mildly interesting points and facts of life that I should be ranting on about this morning.
Instead, I'll be stating some very blatantly boring as wheat events and little occurrences that have been going on in my life because that's what we really want to know now, right?
I'll be graduating in about two months time but the effect and gravity of this situation has not fully allowed my brain to comprehend this yet. I'm hopelessly fully unemployed in the future though there is that part time stint I have which I am grateful for and hope something will come off it soon.
I don't know why I've been sort of keeping this in the down low for a while now but for almost a month and a half now, I've been attending church, joining a cell group and doing that whole worship/praise God/upholding prayers. It's not that no one is interested but that I think sometimes just bringing up a sensitive topic like religion no less Christianity is a taboo at this time when we are supposedly very open and embracing differences.
Quite honestly, I am still struggling with becoming and forming myself into what we like to call a "good Christian". I am so far away from even beginning to think of myself a "true Christian" much less a good one.
Nevertheless, after years of denying the fact that I have strayed and blamed it on certain people and consequences, I realize that what I had done was not right and aim to correct that wrong which I have also convinced myself in the past that it wasn't my fault.
It's definitely hard to accept that and took quite a while and some tears to allow me to fully realize that but I think I've got the hang of actually accepting my flaws and not denying them any longer but to do something about them.
Which leads me to how this has sort of affected the way I do things now. It's not changed very much but sort of like it's aligned my priorities a lot better now than I had hoped it would. Considering the doom of exams are just lurking behind that corner, this couldn't have come at a better time.
I don't like admitting the fact that I can be quite closed up sometimes and have difficulty opening up about certain issues but since joining a cell group, I think this has allowed me to improve on that and discover new people and quirks which I never imagined to meet before. Which is a good thing by the way. As you know I don't like mentioning too many names in this here l'il blog o mine but I think you know who you are. If you don't then look and listen more closely.
The last assignment of my natural university going life is to be completed by Thursday and it's worth 6.5% of the total assessment for the subject. That's a bit of an anticlimax. Oh well.
I have classes very soon and hopefully this new journey that I have somehow stumbled upon will take me to places that I can only hope for and of course pray for.
