Haven't been out in a long time so yesterday's expedition of sorts was as good as anytime to go out and let loose a bit.
The last time I saw Adelynn was a few months back during our New Year's party/get-together in my house, so it was good to see her again. And Alwin too. The three of us scoured and ronda-ed around in 1Utama for a few hours, just talking and gossiping and playing pool as well. It was my first time playing that game so I felt like a little girl learning everything all over again. Maybe a few more games will let me get used to it and play a lot better. I had cake again today. My guilty conscious is getting to me now. No more indulging for a long time now. I think I've put on a few pounds again since the beginning of this year already. Yikes. I can feel the pounds in my face and thighs. And arms. Eep. After that we hit Sharon's place to visit the sick-stricken girl. It seems the flu bug is hitting everyone these days. I've been suffering from sneezes and sniffs all week long. So, yes, it was fun too just relaxing and crapping about random stuff in the comforts of a friend's home.
My studying progress seems rather hindered for the moment. I can't seem to concentrate very well these days. Even though I seem to have all the time in the world to study and do revision I can't get myself to sit still for an hour or two and just concentrate on the work at hand. There're too many distractions in my room and house; namely tv and movies. I'm such a movie addict. I could probably sit down and just watch movies only for a few days straight. With the inclusion of a few hours sleep between movies here and there. No. Not good at all. Got to stay focused and leave all the movies for after the finals. My assignment results are not as good as I hoped they'd be. Yes, I can get very pissed when I don't expect things to happen as I expected them to be. And this is one of them. I honestly thought I did not a shabby job of my Marketing assignment but apparently the lecturer didn't agree with me. Grr. Whatever. I'm maddeningly pissed with the marks but I won't let him know about my anger and bitchiness by sulking in college. Just got to try harder and smarter. I officially hate Marketing now. But it's probably just my bitchiness side talking here.
I really don't hate everything as much as people like to think I do. Or don't.
There was this bugging and nagging rant at the top of my head for the past few days which I really have to let off now.
People, and I mean girls and ladies and women actually, feel that they have (must) to give birth to a baby boy or girl one day. I think that's quite extreme. It's not a case of must but why would you? Just because society dictates that we should. Or because of parents wanting a grandchild to preen and pamper day and night. Or for some other higher reasoning where it is our sacred duty to continue our family line and name or generation thing.
I remembered way back when I actually thought of how many kids I wanted to have. A boy and a girl. That was my ideal. I would have the best of both worlds; a boy and a girl. One of each. And the number two was also my favourite number then too. Now, I'm thinking again. Why would I want kids? Just to fulfill some inner self itching to experience the painful childbirth process. Or just to be another mom. I really don't know yet but when it comes, it comes.
There're over 6 billion people in the world as of 2000. It's five years since then so it's probably a little over 6.5 billion at the least, I should think. We don't need to increase the world's population any more than we should. It's selfish to think that we have to have a baby just because we want to. Just because we want to experience the "joys" of childbirth. There're so many orphans in the world today that could easily fill in that joy of having a child without birthing another baby. It's also much less painful than having to go through pregnancy and those baby weening years. Unless you opt to adopt a baby then that's fine as well. I think I would adopt a kid if I could. Why go through childbirth and waste your body, unless you happen to have access to a personal trainer to get back to your original shape in two months or less? You'd be doing that kid and yourself a favour. You'd be giving the kid a chance to live again and you get to fulfill that empty void of parenting that one day most of us would probably feel.
Most people would probably don't agree with my thoughts but I'm not here to advocate them and push it into their brains. This is just another one of those random and slight insightful thoughts that most people won't normally talk about much less think about.
I hope I've given you something to think about today. Cheers.
I've abandoned that long ranty post on Superman now since I can't mould my thoughts into somewhat concrete points and ideas that would even sound mildly convincing for this blog.
about ur opinion on the child adoption thingy, i think its a very bold decision to make someday. and if anyone ever decides to adopt orphan(s), i think it'd be better if they go orphans-all-the-way. probably cos if u bear ur own child and have an adopted one, maybe u'd tend to be more "berat sebelah" or something. somehow personally, i would like to have my own kids. i kinda wanna go thru the pain my MUM had to go thru to have me. then i;ll truly understand a mother's love or something. bah~ lol.