Exhaustion doesn't become me. I actually dozed off for several minutes on my bed reading 'The Da Vinci Code' for a while. The bedside lamp was shining directly in my face as the light fixture just above my point of reading view blew out this morning and I'm too lazy to replace it. It wasn't the lack of intrigue and interest in the book's content that bored me but the sheer lustreless brain of mine that refused to function after a day's day of walking up and down hilly roads and exploring a certain forgotten flea market after only less than six hours sleep the prevailing night.
Together once again with the posse that is Miss Tai and Goh and myself of course from our previous excursion, we actually were up as early as before seven to attend and participate in a walkathon for breast cancer awareness in Bangsar this morning. I suppose this was a pre-early warning for me that I would have to wake up early again come next Monday when the time comes for me to meet my fate and impending results. I have to admit again that the thought of such results is really making me feel edgier and tenser than usual. My voluntary participation in this morning's event surely is evident of that. Though it was the thought that counted of course. Don't get me wrong. I didn't not enjoy it as the conversations that continued almost unendingly throughout the walk took our minds of the road that lay ahead of us and the fact that we were walking about eight kilometres in distance. It was just really nice and appreciative to just talk about anything and everything and reminisce about the high school years. Well, for the most part concerning the last topic in question. Time really flies by when your mind is on anything other than the long path ahead of you at the present time. I should probably do something like that again. But not for a long while more.
Not since Harry Potter; the second last book, did I finish a novel so fast as I did with 'Angels and Demons' last night. I can't believe I didn't read it sooner. I should listen to my friends' persistent advice and encouragements more. Though I took everything I read with a grain of salt, well more like a whole tablespoon of it, I want to visit Rome now more than ever. Just to visit those places as described in the book. A novel can really change your perception on things as fast as that. I never held the city of God or the Vatican City in such a very high and mighty light. The only thing I knew about it was that it was the smallest country in the world and the Pope thing.
Humble apologies in advance if what I say is a desecration on your beliefs or whatnot but bear in mind that this is coming from a fairly ignorant but inquisitive and respectful youth.
Sure, the book posed a lot of controversial theories based on real hard facts but no one can deny that it was a damn good fiction novel. Unless you have an intense dislike for anything related to any religious beliefs in the world and the slightly confusing twists that are abundant in the book then no one should have problems disliking this book too much. Well, I suppose I should now pen down a long essay regarding on whether I hold as much belief in the Almighty one above as other staunch believers or that I place my faith more in the hands of scientists acting as God's hands and minds on earth displacing the mythical truths that is life one by one as we progress further on. I don't want and won't do that. Simply because I hold both those faiths close to me. I want to and do believe that there is a greater being beyond the threshold of what we can tangibly see as some mysteries really cannot be explained by any sciences but the pure fact that it is a miracle in some way. Births and deaths are miracles in their own rights and life is the ultimate mystery to be unraveled as the end of the cycle. At the same time, my principles of leaving our fates and destinies to a yet unconfirmed and scientifically proven being leaves a lot to be desired. I read the Bible very occasionally, sad to say, but the idea that He created the world and everything else in just seven days seems, crudely put, preposterous. The Big Bang theory just makes a lot more sense to me even though I don't quite understand it completely myself. So, yeah, I accept that there is a God and there is Science. Both coexisting at the same time to remind us that life isn't just a question but the only journey that a person takes in a lifetime.
Glad I got that off my chest. I guess it just took a long while for me to confirm what I truly believe in even though some people may not agree with me but to hell with them.
