For once I actually and really don't have anything specific and special to post about. Yay for mediocre and laid-back blogging.
Returned from watching only partially of 'Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas' in the JCR as tonight was International Movie Night. I don't really know where the international part fit in but go movie night. It was partially interesting in the beginning but I got too lost in the weirdness, drug-ness, and drunkenness of Johnny Depp and Benicio Del Toro midway through and decided to retreat to the comfort and warmth of my room to, of all things, work on my QM2 assignment which isn't due until after Easter break. But seeing as I'll be away for the most part of Easter and I won't have time to properly work on it, I suppose it would be a good time as any to start on it now and not have to have this shadow looming over my mind when I try to shop and explore Sydney as much as I possibly can and enjoy my time with friends there.
So what am I really doing here typing out information as non-factly and useless as possible for strangers and some to read and mock me?
Probably just to dwell a little on a not-so-favourite topic of mine to begin with as I've barely or even never touched even so much on it before. But I suppose it's inevitable that I will begin talking about it when you come to stay in a place such as IH.
Now suppose that there was this guy that you first met in the first few weeks of O-week and he sort of impressed you a bit but you don't really know why and what made him have such an impact on you. You begin to look forward to the day that you get to see him again the following week for just three days and maybe on some nights when he feels exceptionally talky. He nods and says hi and hello to you when you both meet and yet it never really goes beyond that. We have little chats and make small talk and laugh about random things. You guess that he probably has a girlfriend already and your intuition is dead on right. So now he just seems like any ordinary guy you meet every week with no strings attached. And yet somehow your heart may skip a beat when he passes you at that same time and day every week.
I'm still rather confused with this one but I think I'm getting there to sorting it out. I'm alright. Really.
Then comes along another guy who seems to be the perfect embodiment of whom you'd think you'd get along really fine and well. He's talkative, intriguing, charming and witty. There seems to be some indication that he's that but still the fine line is blurred further when you see him with other people around. There're no concrete feelings attached as yet but you're just a little bit curious. He smiles at you in the halls and occasionally offers to make you a great cup of tea. Yet this just makes you all the more confused about what is happening or might happen. I'm in limbo but he might not be.
It's a blank.
I want to say that I get along with this guy the best but not right now. He's an oddity in himself and you don't know much about him but you know that he's genuine. He seems mildly interested in yourself and yet you can't bring yourself to admit that. You brush it off as nothing but friendly banter and yet again it could be really nothing. Both of you have talked on some random occasions where it felt light and free and cool. Still the question mark hangs over his head and yours is spinning.
Why do I have to start thinking about such matters at this time of when my grades and hopes and dreams are in danger and jeopardy of being tilted over the edge and I come crashing and burning in IH-hot-to-go style.
I hope tomorrow won't be too cold to walk. It shouldn't be though. I'm still deliberating over whether I should get a UniMelb hoodie. I am contented with my IH fleece hoodie and rugby jumper now but I could always use some new clothes. Anyone could.
Went out with a group of random old high school friends today and had a Koko Black Liquid Mocha aka hot dark chocolate which really was exceptionally good. Especially for weather like this. And still I decided to have vanilla ice-cream with milo and nuts for dessert tonight. My throat is so going to go tomorrow morning.
IFA midterm results will be out some time in the coming few days. I really have a bad feeling about it. Hope everyone else will have a good and better week than I will.
P.S.: Photos have ceased for the moment due to midterms and assignments. Hopefully I can reimburse this loss with photos in Sydney next week.
had this to say at 11 April, 2006 10:25
