Feeling a little bit down today. Considering I watched a depressing movie and finished 'Eleven Minutes' which was rather depressing too actually, I'd be rather surprised if I find myself laughing or even smiling at anything after this post.
Rewatched 'Grave of the Fireflies' today and cried again. I think today was my third watching of it actually which would make it the only movie that has managed to make me cry with every watching of it. It's too depressing to explain the movie now but I just can't help but love it. Every moment of poignancy and sadness managed to lightly touch me and start the waterworks. Sigh. Do I even need to give this movie a rating? Alright, alright; a perfect score of 10.
I was rather surprised and taken aback by the next show which turned out to be a music video or short film of sorts. 'On Your Mark' was quite interesting actually and I would watch the full length movie if there is one. Pleasantly intrigued by the angel/winged girl and the two protagonists. Can't rate this one as it's technically not a movie but more of a music video.
Besides tiring my eyes out staring at the television all day, I did finish reading 'Eleven Minutes'. Personally, I still liked 'The Alchemist' better but it was still a very good read. Kind of follows along the lines of 'Alchemist' about finding yourself and discovering your soul and the meaning of happiness or life. And I really liked the ending of this book as much as I liked 'Alchemist' ending too. Coelho seems to have the skill of writing really good and satisfying endings which leave you feeling contented and happy instead of a weird emptiness ending that most books portray. During the course of the book it was really quite sad but the last page of the book just made me smile.
No more crying or sad movies and books for a long time now. I need something uplifting and fun to watch and read and just enjoy. I think I'm ready to watch 'Star Wars' now. Two main reasons being Hayden and Ewan. Hayden, because I think he's hot. (Fine, I admit it! Happy?) And Ewan because I just generally like him as he's a good actor and because of his faintly cute Scottish accent. Yes, I am going to fall into the dark side very soon as I follow others as well into this trapping made by Lucas. I hope this doesn't develop into a habit of watching more Hollywood-hyped-up movies in the near future. With the exception of HP & the Goblet of Fire which will be coming out later this year.
I felt empty this afternoon. Just empty. Like I don't even know what I'm supposed to do anymore in my life. I always get that feeling whenever I finish a book. And then I just get over it and move on with life. In about ten minutes. But within those ten minutes I'd be lying in my bed just feeling a sense of nothingness. But you can't feel nothing. As nothing is nothing. Just an empty void incapable of reeling itself away from the hollowness. But I always get over it. I just think that, what if I don't. One day I could be stuck in that rut for a long time and not get over it as easily as I did this afternoon. I hate feeling like an empty shell. But I just get over it as I always have to and will.
Gah. This spilling my feelings and soul thing and serving it up on a silver platter for the world to see is just not my thing. I'll be back to my ranty self soon. Promise.
